Well I am at work... planned on listening to Pandora like always... Well I only have 5 hours of play time left this month, and 8 hours of work left for the week... so K-Love it is...
As I am sitting at my desk, with all my work done for the day... (I only work 4 hours a day and I have been here for an hour) Sitting and thinking about everything going on in my life. Everything. From the good to the bad. Thinking about taking my sisters to the cornmaze tonight... Should be fun! I always enjoy the time I have with my littles.
Missing Carrie for sure. I really wish she was here. I would love to sit at Northtown and talk about nothing. Just sitting with Carrie would be enough. Laughing with Carrie would be enough. Well just being in the presence of my best friend would be enough. She's doing great, and I am so happy for her... but secretly... I was hoping she'd want to come home. I am glad she doesn't though... I am proud of her... so so very proud of her. Just proves that God will take care of you. He has surely proved that here.
My eyes have been bugging me lately... I think its time for glasses... and not just readers. Actual glasses... We'll see... last time I went to the eye doctor my vision was more then perfect. I was just told to stop reading so much. I miss reading so much. Maybe I should start reading again. I for sure have enough time.
Basketball starts in 3 short weeks. Meetings start next week.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Music: My Love. My Life.
A Playlist of My Life
(Written 2/28/10 at 9:57pm)
Music. In the car. In the shower. iPod. CDs. Radio. Pandora. While I am writing this blog. I surround myself with music. It calms me. Makes me smile. I am constantly putting on concerts when noone is watching. Music allows me to go where I want. Feel what I want. Every song is my favorite. My life is one giant playlist. I have a song for every thought. A song that would fit with any major or minor event in my life. I love music. Every one of my friends has a song. I put music to my heartbreaks, and to my happiest of memories.
As I was driving back from Spokane today I was listening to Kellie Pickler. Just myself, the road, and Kellie. It was the first time I had listened to her whole CD. So many songs fit my life. So many of her songs made me go "hmm... I have been there." Its weird when you can relate to everyone of her songs. I could put them all with a moment in my life. This time was different though. I didn't put on a concert. I just listened. Listened to every word. Heard every word. I love music that makes me think.I have decided to make a list. A list of recent songs that can be put to my life. And a little explination of why I have chose that song for that particular moment. I am not going to go back to far... just far enough...
I'm your Woman by Kellie Pickler... to the guy who hasn't quite realized why I am in his life.
Need You Now by Lady Antebellum... everytime I have ever texted or called someone when I knew I shouldn't have.
In Color by Jimmy Johnson... Just reminds me of my Grandparents. They are amazing people with great stories. Stories I could listen to over and over.
Sleeping with a broken heart by Alicia Keys... Recently I was sleeping with a broken heart... and I played this song over and over and over... It really only made things worse...
Ignition Remix by R Kelly... Junior year reminds me of joy riding with Lila and Megan.
Butterfly by Mariah Carey... Broke up with a boyfriend on Valentines Day... Then decided that I wanted him back. (haha I can't believe I am admitting this)
Anything to do with Pride and Prejudice... Carrie. My best friend ever. Makes me smile.
Present Date
I read this back and all I could think of was wow... Kellie Pickler... for sure there had to of been someone better I could have listened to... but then there must have been something about her music that stuck out to me... Jumping back today. I think I would have to go with Francesca Battistelli... Her CD Paper Heart has to be my all time favorite... I could pretty much put everyone of her songs to something that has been happening in my life...
Time in Between... Seriously this songs reminds me to remember what Jesus has done for me. It reminds me not just about how He died for my sins, but what he did in btween.
Someday Soon... Now this song would be for my future love... Hopefully one day I can play it for him and he won't think I am crazy...haha
Then I would say lets give a more updated play list of my life to date!
Revelation Song (by whoever, I love it regardless)... reminds me of Church, and everytime we sing it... I get this big ol' smile on my face, normally I look over at Debbie and give her that same big ol' smile! I get a little giddy inside when I sing it!
Before He Cheats by Carrie Underwood... makes me think of the countless times Carrie and I would sing "man hater songs" at the Stoney! And now that Carrie has moved all the way acrossed the country it means a little more to me when I hear it or Gunpowder and Lead by Miranda Lambert... or Taylor Swift...
Hometown Glory by Adele... I could play this song on repeat for the rest of my life and not get tired of it... Makes me think about my little hometown!
Not Ready to Make Nice by The Dixie Chicks... this goes out to the last jerk who made me sad!
If I Die Young by The Band Perry... makes me think of what would happen if I died young... would people remember me?
Starry Night by Chris August.. continues to be my go to song when I need a little pick me up!
And anything that Praises God! I find myself listening to worship music most of the time!
Anything Lady Antebellum... reminds me of the amazing concert I went to with my Best Friends! Getting yelled at to sit down... priceless!
I love music so much that when my sisters and I "Play" a game... If a song comes on the radio that we love one of us will say "let's play"... then music gets turned up and the windows all get rolled down... and we sing as loud as possible! Definitely something I hope we will continue to do!
My music has helped me get through the roughest of times, the happiest of times... and the times when theres nothing else to do, but have a good jam session... :)
(Written 2/28/10 at 9:57pm)
Music. In the car. In the shower. iPod. CDs. Radio. Pandora. While I am writing this blog. I surround myself with music. It calms me. Makes me smile. I am constantly putting on concerts when noone is watching. Music allows me to go where I want. Feel what I want. Every song is my favorite. My life is one giant playlist. I have a song for every thought. A song that would fit with any major or minor event in my life. I love music. Every one of my friends has a song. I put music to my heartbreaks, and to my happiest of memories.
As I was driving back from Spokane today I was listening to Kellie Pickler. Just myself, the road, and Kellie. It was the first time I had listened to her whole CD. So many songs fit my life. So many of her songs made me go "hmm... I have been there." Its weird when you can relate to everyone of her songs. I could put them all with a moment in my life. This time was different though. I didn't put on a concert. I just listened. Listened to every word. Heard every word. I love music that makes me think.I have decided to make a list. A list of recent songs that can be put to my life. And a little explination of why I have chose that song for that particular moment. I am not going to go back to far... just far enough...
I'm your Woman by Kellie Pickler... to the guy who hasn't quite realized why I am in his life.
Need You Now by Lady Antebellum... everytime I have ever texted or called someone when I knew I shouldn't have.
In Color by Jimmy Johnson... Just reminds me of my Grandparents. They are amazing people with great stories. Stories I could listen to over and over.
Sleeping with a broken heart by Alicia Keys... Recently I was sleeping with a broken heart... and I played this song over and over and over... It really only made things worse...
Ignition Remix by R Kelly... Junior year reminds me of joy riding with Lila and Megan.
Butterfly by Mariah Carey... Broke up with a boyfriend on Valentines Day... Then decided that I wanted him back. (haha I can't believe I am admitting this)
Anything to do with Pride and Prejudice... Carrie. My best friend ever. Makes me smile.
Present Date
I read this back and all I could think of was wow... Kellie Pickler... for sure there had to of been someone better I could have listened to... but then there must have been something about her music that stuck out to me... Jumping back today. I think I would have to go with Francesca Battistelli... Her CD Paper Heart has to be my all time favorite... I could pretty much put everyone of her songs to something that has been happening in my life...
Time in Between... Seriously this songs reminds me to remember what Jesus has done for me. It reminds me not just about how He died for my sins, but what he did in btween.
Someday Soon... Now this song would be for my future love... Hopefully one day I can play it for him and he won't think I am crazy...haha
Then I would say lets give a more updated play list of my life to date!
Revelation Song (by whoever, I love it regardless)... reminds me of Church, and everytime we sing it... I get this big ol' smile on my face, normally I look over at Debbie and give her that same big ol' smile! I get a little giddy inside when I sing it!
Before He Cheats by Carrie Underwood... makes me think of the countless times Carrie and I would sing "man hater songs" at the Stoney! And now that Carrie has moved all the way acrossed the country it means a little more to me when I hear it or Gunpowder and Lead by Miranda Lambert... or Taylor Swift...
Hometown Glory by Adele... I could play this song on repeat for the rest of my life and not get tired of it... Makes me think about my little hometown!
Not Ready to Make Nice by The Dixie Chicks... this goes out to the last jerk who made me sad!
If I Die Young by The Band Perry... makes me think of what would happen if I died young... would people remember me?
Starry Night by Chris August.. continues to be my go to song when I need a little pick me up!
And anything that Praises God! I find myself listening to worship music most of the time!
Anything Lady Antebellum... reminds me of the amazing concert I went to with my Best Friends! Getting yelled at to sit down... priceless!
I love music so much that when my sisters and I "Play" a game... If a song comes on the radio that we love one of us will say "let's play"... then music gets turned up and the windows all get rolled down... and we sing as loud as possible! Definitely something I hope we will continue to do!
My music has helped me get through the roughest of times, the happiest of times... and the times when theres nothing else to do, but have a good jam session... :)
Friday, October 22, 2010
Stolen Idea. (don't judge me)
I stole this idea from my friend Neil. Sorry Neil!
Sometimes I laugh at my own jokes.
Sometimes I wish you were here.
Sometimes I try to hard.
Sometimes I get jealous.
Sometimes I feel like I am a walking mustard seed.
Sometimes I wear mismatched socks.
Sometimes I wish I was a kid again.
Sometimes I want you to call.
Sometimes I just need a hug.
Sometimes I get nervous.
Sometimes I forget what I wanted to tell you.
Sometimes I read my bible and pray.
Sometimes I am in awe of your abilities.
Sometimes I really wish you would notice me.
Sometimes I paint my ring finger a different color from the rest of my fingers.
Sometimes I count just because.
Sometimes I imagine what I would be like if I was from the south.
Sometimes I wish I had my own TV show.
Sometimes I steal other peoples ideas.
Sometimes I don't want to get out of my pjs.
Sometimes I find you amazing.
Sometimes I crave beef jerky and orange juice.
Sometimes I pretend to like something when I don't, just because I like you.
Sometimes I fall down stairs.
Sometimes I sprain both of my ankles.
Sometimes I am to prideful to ask for help.
Sometimes I wish I was a trained ballerina.
Sometimes I wish I still lived in Spokane.
Sometimes I think about how I would react if you asked me out.
Sometimes I imagine how it would be to carefree.
Sometimes I spend time at my Grams house.
Sometimes I don't spend enough time at my Grams house.
Sometimes I am sad.
Sometimes I want to push everything off the shelves at the grocery store.
Sometimes I talk to much.
Sometimes I look at my high school yearbooks.
Sometimes I want to become a runner.
Sometimes I like exactly who I am.
Sometimes I get really frustrated.
Sometimes I neglect those I love most.
Sometimes I am afraid I might get hit by a car.
Sometimes I sit and think.
Sometimes I just sit.
Sometimes I want more tattoos.
Sometimes I hide my feelings from everyone.
Sometimes I don't say enough.
Sometimes I sugarcoat things.
Sometimes I don't.
Sometimes I try hard to be a good listener.
Sometimes I just want to be heard.
Sometimes I try to forget about you because its easier that way.
Sometimes I don't want to forget about you.
Sometimes I just want to tell you, but then I remember what you told me.
Sometimes I want to be a rule breaker.
Sometimes I say just what I think you want to hear.
Sometimes I wish you would notice me.
Sometimes I am glad you haven't.
Sometimes I cry.
Sometimes I cry for you.
Sometimes I lose track of time.
Sometimes I have to much time on my hands.
Sometimes I wish hanging out with you would fill my extra time.
Sometimes I get long winded.
Sometimes I say what I need to say without saying what I really wanted to say.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
New Friends
Everyday I am reminded of how amazing God is... I am reminded of the person I used to be and the person I am becoming... And boy do I love her... As I was sitting acrossed from my Small Group partner on Monday, I got the feeling I was in the exact right place at the exact right time. God places people in your life at the right moment... Spending the afternoon with Heather was such a great experience... We might have never sat down alone and talked if it wasn't for the 6 week "Six Steps to Encouragement" practical training for small groups. Being able to talk about everything from be becoming a Christian to the struggles we face everyday. Being able to dicuss scripture.... Now thats something that I never thought that I would enjoy (before I became a believer)... We sat and eat chicken salad sandwiches (which was the best chicken salad ever) and grapes... talking and talking... I have to admit I was a bit nervous before I got there... not knowing what to expect... I bit worried that we might not have anything in common... Then I got to thinking and I even chuckled to myself... we have the most important thing in common, and thats God... honestly what more do you need.
I have started to attend a new small group... I have started to meet new people... I have really started to feel at home around my church family... Walking by people who know my name and may even know a little bit about me. I have started to say hi more, and make conversation instead of running out the door after church. Relationships are being built. After Carrie left I felt a bit out of the loop... I didn't have my best friend to rely on... I didn't have my best friend to sit with... I didn't have her to cling to anymore... so it could have went 2 ways... I could have continued to run out of church after it was over or get involved... I chose to get involved... I chose to make it a habit of going to small group... I chose to get involved in Sunday School... I chose to do the best that I could... and look at all the opprtunities that God has placed in front of me... So that I can continue to grow... I can continue to walk the path He has layed before me... I give all my thanks to the Lord...
I have started to attend a new small group... I have started to meet new people... I have really started to feel at home around my church family... Walking by people who know my name and may even know a little bit about me. I have started to say hi more, and make conversation instead of running out the door after church. Relationships are being built. After Carrie left I felt a bit out of the loop... I didn't have my best friend to rely on... I didn't have my best friend to sit with... I didn't have her to cling to anymore... so it could have went 2 ways... I could have continued to run out of church after it was over or get involved... I chose to get involved... I chose to make it a habit of going to small group... I chose to get involved in Sunday School... I chose to do the best that I could... and look at all the opprtunities that God has placed in front of me... So that I can continue to grow... I can continue to walk the path He has layed before me... I give all my thanks to the Lord...
Monday, October 11, 2010
Learning and Growing
For record I am a girl that forgives, but almost never forgets. I am a girl that has her faults, and most of the time owns up to them... And occasionally I step out of line and say something that I immediately wish I could take back. I am growing and changing everyday, and its hard to leave these shields behind me. I have been working hard on becoming someone that I can be proud of. My whole life has changed and I need to be able to feel comfortable to change with it. I shouldn't be one person around someone and then another around someone else. Its not that I don't love who I have become... its just that I didn't hate the person I once was... Yes there was things about me then, that I wish I could forget and I gladly leave them behind... I guess its just a struggle that I am going to have to go through. And one I will gladly take on.
Shifting gears...
Have I mentioned lately how amazing God is? He continues to show me amazing things each and everyday. He is so giving and so caring... I am sitting at work... and I just got done doing a little bible study homework... And everytime I spend time in the Word I learn something new... and that to me is amazing...
Shifting gears...
Have I mentioned lately how amazing God is? He continues to show me amazing things each and everyday. He is so giving and so caring... I am sitting at work... and I just got done doing a little bible study homework... And everytime I spend time in the Word I learn something new... and that to me is amazing...
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