Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Winter.

Snow and I aren't friends. We never have been and I am pretty sure we never will be. I never enjoyed playing in the snow when I was a kid. We would get pulled by a tracor on entertubes... I would sit with my uncle in the cab of the tractor, and he would ask me every so often if I was ready to ride. My answer would always be no. I never wanted to go sledding. I love to look at snow, and drink Hot Chocolate. I don't like to be cold. I don't like to be bundled, and I hate wearing socks. And now as an adult I would have to say that I am so thankful for 4 wheel dirve. Its almost safe to say I hate winter. Spring is my season. I can't wait until the flowers start blooming and the sun shines all day.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Tied Together.

About a week ago I got a call from my best friend. It was late (her time), so I figured it was something important. And its crazy because what she called about was exactly how I had been feeling. Its crazy that we can go through the same ups and downs, and be thousands of miles apart. I find it odd that we could be thinking about eachother at the exact same moment too. Like this morning I was thinking about her while I was driving to work, wishing that I could talk to her, and what is she doing thinking the exact same thing. Crazy. Crazy. Crazy. Life is great when you have someone that you can trust. I know that God placed Carrie in my life a long time ago, but I never really realized how important she was to me until she moved away. I just think that our friendship has got a tighter bond now.

I remember her moving like it was yesterday. We woke up really early to head to Seattle so she could get on a plan to fly to DC. I just remember standing in our room, now only with my stuff, and a box of Carrie's winter things... I was looking out the window trying to hold back my tears. I was feeling sorry for myself. I was upset because my best friend was leaving me. I got my crying under control and walked out to the car where Carrie was waiting for me. I think there was about 3 times I was broke down without anyone noticing. I remember I told Carrie, that she could make new friends, just not a new best friend. I told her not to try and replace me. After picking up Nancy, and heading to Costco for a last minute laptop purchase, we were headed to the airport. I felt like my heart was being ripped out as Carrie walked through the security check point. I knew I would see her again. I just knew at very moment are lives weren't going to be on the same paths anymore. Carrie was off to the big city, and I was staying in our comfort zone. I knew at that moment I wanted to do bigger and better things. I want to make changes. I needed to make changes. Even though I was so sad Carrie was moving. I am glad she did. She made me realize I wanted to make changes to. She gave me the little push I needed to decide I was going back to school.

I cried for about 15 times on the way home. I am a sappy person... I kept telling Nancy I just don't want Carrie to replace me... Nancy looked at me and said "Kendra, Carrie might make new friends, and good ones... but there's one thing you'll always have that they don't... You knew her then, and they just know her now." And right then I knew no matter how far Carrie moves away from me... we will always be best friends. We will always depend on eachother regardless of distance. She will always be my go to girl. I will always love her like a sister. She has done things for me that I will be forever greatful for. Our bond is unbreakable.

Lately I have really missed her. Christmas is fast approaching. And I honestly cannot wait! Hurry home C!