Dearest Friends,
I cannot believe this year has come and is almost gone. My life as some of you know has been busier then ever. I have started coaching High School girls basketball out in Selah, and I love it more then ever. I love being in charge of my own team, and so far we are 4-1. On top of coaching I am attending YVCC full time to get my transfer degree... I am one year in and hopefully I will be finished by spring of next year. Keeping my fingers crossed I don't lose my drive and determination. School did help me lose 18 pounds, and gave me the little push I needed to keep losing weight. I am looking to be a new and improved Kendra in 2012.
I have also been helping with my church's youth group, and what a blessing that has been. Crossed Out Student Ministries has been just want I have needed in my walk with the Lord. I have seen some amazing growth not only in the students, but in myself. I got the chance to head up to Camp Dudley with COSM, and boy did that place bring back so great memories. We spent 3 days there learning about Jonah, and I had a fabulous time! I got the chance to spend some much needed time with McKenzie and Michaela. And what a blessing it was to be in a place that's so great!
Well hopefully my family can hold itself together this next year. Michaela just had knee surgery, my brother has a cracked tibia... And I will be headed to the doctor sometime this week to see if I have any damage to my knee. I was squatting down at my game on Thursday, and twisted funny when I went to get up, and my knee popped twice and has been tender ever since. So prayers that it's nothing would be much appreciated.
Over all this year has been one amazing year. The Lord has blessed me tremendously! I am looking forward to everything this coming year has to offer. Many blessings to you and your families. Love you all!!
Kendra
Sunday, December 18, 2011
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Questioning...
So this question has been bugging me all day... Is it EVER ok for a girl to tell a guy that she has feelings for him? And if so, when? I have asked countless friends, both guys and girls... And I have gotten mixed reviews. One friend stated, well "have you been flirting with him?" And I thought well I think so... In all honesty I am not the flirtiest person. I mean do I need to twirl my hair and bat my eyes at him?
Another friend told me... "why would you? He'll come around." And I thought to myself really? After 10 months of having a crush on someone, and wham he comes around? I don't know, but thanks.
I am always going back to if he likes you then he will pursue you. If he really liked me, then I am sure he would pursue me. Unless he's not sure I am interested. Yes, we talk more, have even hungout together. Things have changed. But I promised myself that I would not go back to how I used to do things. My heart matters more to me and having to patch it up again just doesn't sound appealing.
Maybe I am just getting tired of waiting around. I think right now I am the only one waiting around. I think this whole question sprung from my insecurities. I am afraid if I don't say something, he might choose someone else. He might decide that being my friend is enough. If I don't say something... But I always say something, and it winds up with me either sad or broken hearted.
I always play the what if game in my head... I say... Well what if he thinks we don't have enough in common... So I try something he likes... That didn't work out so well, but I tried. Maybe I should hang where he hangs... What if he comes when I am there... I am seriously out of thoughts. Until I realized it's not about my timing, and what I want. It's not about showing up and being in the same place he is. I am not in control. It's about trusting in the Lord with all my heart. It's about knowing that what ever He has in my plan is perfect. It's being content with everything He has given me. So I won't say anything to the guy I have liked for a while now. I have to trust in the Lord. He knows if he'll come around or not. It's about taking the friendship that He has given me, and enjoy that as much as possible. It's being thankful that I now have an amazing Christian friend that I know I can depend on... He makes me laugh... Who I enjoy being around... And more importantly God helped restore my hope in men.
Honestly, if I learn anything from this entire situation... It will be there are good guys out there. Guys who love God with there whole hearts, guys who treat you with respect. Guys who love their family and friends. So for that I will be forever thankful.
Another friend told me... "why would you? He'll come around." And I thought to myself really? After 10 months of having a crush on someone, and wham he comes around? I don't know, but thanks.
I am always going back to if he likes you then he will pursue you. If he really liked me, then I am sure he would pursue me. Unless he's not sure I am interested. Yes, we talk more, have even hungout together. Things have changed. But I promised myself that I would not go back to how I used to do things. My heart matters more to me and having to patch it up again just doesn't sound appealing.
Maybe I am just getting tired of waiting around. I think right now I am the only one waiting around. I think this whole question sprung from my insecurities. I am afraid if I don't say something, he might choose someone else. He might decide that being my friend is enough. If I don't say something... But I always say something, and it winds up with me either sad or broken hearted.
I always play the what if game in my head... I say... Well what if he thinks we don't have enough in common... So I try something he likes... That didn't work out so well, but I tried. Maybe I should hang where he hangs... What if he comes when I am there... I am seriously out of thoughts. Until I realized it's not about my timing, and what I want. It's not about showing up and being in the same place he is. I am not in control. It's about trusting in the Lord with all my heart. It's about knowing that what ever He has in my plan is perfect. It's being content with everything He has given me. So I won't say anything to the guy I have liked for a while now. I have to trust in the Lord. He knows if he'll come around or not. It's about taking the friendship that He has given me, and enjoy that as much as possible. It's being thankful that I now have an amazing Christian friend that I know I can depend on... He makes me laugh... Who I enjoy being around... And more importantly God helped restore my hope in men.
Honestly, if I learn anything from this entire situation... It will be there are good guys out there. Guys who love God with there whole hearts, guys who treat you with respect. Guys who love their family and friends. So for that I will be forever thankful.
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